katie jean\
SHINKLE

 

 

 

 

 

WHEN WE WERE GIRLS

 

And I can only know what I know now

through a send a-way, a fly a-way, this fly a-way, o no.

To this day, you ask me

if I know where things belong

as if I still live inside of you.

This is what I’m supposed to do:

wake up

and seethe

not from missing

but from the ache

of never wanting in the first place.

Open your mouth, young world.

Your tongue made of a demonbird’s nest.

How we burn to the quick, to the death,

to the seeming end,

a desire so thick you could lap at it.

Hundreds of demonbirds

shoot skyward from your throat

except the one in your stomach dying

unrequited.

I lost the fleeting attempt at subtlety,

a good-bye and good-luck [in remembrance of me].

What happens when we demand,

and in our demanding,

all that is delivered

is plucked feathers.

 

 

 

 

Exoneration

 

Dear, I address and readdress,
the package returns no longer lives here

how I cannot find you
anymore.

I am standing in the middle
of the street

clutching mail-stickers of a past
I have barely forgotten,

this yesterday in today
and tomorrow in everything.

Where are you
across these galaxy moments,

with your thumb out, awaiting death.
How the executioner’s hood

goes over the entire face,
not simply eyes.

Katie Jean Shinkle is the author of The Arson People (Civil Coping Mechanisms, 2015), Our Prayers After the Fire (Blue Square Press, 2014), and four chapbooks, most recently There Are So Many Things That Beg You For Love (damaged goods press, 2017). She lives in Yellow Springs, OH.